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How Do You Know If You Are Really Walking With God?

There may be a time in your Christian walk, especially after your initial conversion, when you begin to question if you are really in right relationship with Christ.

It’s important to continuously search our hearts (Psalm 139:23) to make sure that we haven’t deceived ourselves (Galatians 6:3).

The Bible speaks of this self-deception in Matthew 7:21-23; when “Christians” that claim to have a relationship with Christ will be turned away. They will say, “‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?” And He will tell them, “‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

So, how can we be sure that we are truly saved, secure in Christ, and haven’t experienced a false conversion?

Let’s look at 1 John 1:5-10, it reads:

This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

If we take a deeper look and break this scripture down we can find a litmus test of sorts on 3 ways to check our hearts to ensure we are truly walking with the Lord.

HEART CHECK #1: Are you living a lifestyle of unrepentant sin?

As Christians, we know that we all fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23-24). Even after we have accepted the gift of salvation we will still struggle with and be tempted by sin until God calls us home. 

Paul speaks of this pulling of the flesh in Romans 7:20-25. Christians who have truly been converted will continue to struggle with sin but will feel a conviction towards it and a desire to turn away from it. 

A “Christian” who finds themselves walking in constant, habitual sin, but claims to have fellowship with God has deceived themselves.

God is light and there is no darkness in Him (1 john 1:5). Because of this light (ie. His holiness) you can not live a life of unrepentant sin, walking in darkness, and be in right fellowship with Christ.

HEART CHECK: Do you believe that you are a “good person” and have no sin in your life?

By the standard of God’s moral law, the 10 commandments, we can all be in agreement that we have broken at least one of His laws.

Have you ever lied?

even a little white lie? 

Have you ever stolen something? Have you ever said the Lord’s name in vain? Have you always honored your father or mother? 

Have you ever looked upon a man or woman with lust? Then, you’ve committed adultery with them in your heart (Matthew 5:27-28).

Ever said you hated someone? The Lord says in His word that hate is the same as murder! (1 John 3:15)

Being a “good person” by society’s standards is not really good by God’s. He has called us to complete and total holiness, a standard that we are incapable to reach on our own, outside of the blood of Christ.

So, if you really believe in your heart that you have no sin in your life, you have deceived yourself and your heart is not aligned with the heart of Jesus.

HEART CHECK: Do you have a desire to fellowship with other believers?

If we walk in the truth of Christ that will lead us to fellowship with other believers. Are your friends pushing you towards a relationship with Christ or pushing you toward temptation and sin? 

Do your friends feel comfortable openly practicing sin and doing things in direct opposition to God’s law around you? Or, do they feel a conviction when doing sinful acts?

Light attracts light and darkness attracts darkness. 

What kind of relationships are you attracting?

The Good News!

Here is the good news – we all can have true salvation in Christ! God loves us so much that He gave His only son to be sacrificed, and whoever believes in Christ will not perish but will have everlasting life (John 3:16). God does not desire any of us to perish (2 Peter 3:9)!

Come before God with a humble spirit and contrite heart, confess your sins; and He will forgive you and cleanse you of all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).

A Prayer To Overcome Temptation

God has called us to be in the world, not of it, but we’d all be lying if we said that was an easy task. Sin is constantly pulling at us, mocking us, tempting us to forget everything that we know about God.

And, temptations can come in a variety of ways. These days as a stay-at-home mom I find myself being tempted to complain or fall into self-loathing, comparing myself to other moms.

On this side of heaven, temptation will always be a part of the human experience. And, the only way to combat it is to search the scriptures and pray God’s word.

If you find yourself struggling with the temptations of life pray this prayer with me:

PRAYER

God, I am facing temptation right now. Please make clear the way of escape that you have provided for me so that I will be equipped to overcome it. Lord, this temptation is trying to overtake me but I know that you are faithful so you will never allow me to be tempted beyond what I can bear.1 Although this temptation seems too difficult, I am comforted in knowing that your spirit empowers me with self-discipline.2 Strengthen me, Lord, allow me to let the Holy Spirit guide my life so that I won’t do what my sinful nature craves.3 I love you and I desire to keep your commands 4 so that I can inherit the Kingdom of God. Thank you for your grace and your mercy, in Jesus’ name I ask these things, Amen.

Scripture References

  1. 1 Corinthians 10:13
  2. 2 Timothy 1:7
  3. Galatians 5:16
  4. John 14:15

A Prayer For Discipline

Maintaining discipline has never come easy to me. Timeliness and schedules are like a thorn in my side! I’ve always considered myself a free spirit, and these things feel more like a burden than something that is beneficial to me.

But as I’ve matured, I’ve grown to see how much living a disciplined life is so crucial to your success. And, especially after becoming a mother, I’ve realized more than ever how living an undisciplined life can negatively affect my family.

My children need and thrive off of schedules and routines, so I knew I needed to make some major changes! 

I still find myself falling short daily but my prayer is that I continue to seek God in His wisdom as he empowers me to live a more disciplined life.

If you are like me and find yourself struggling with self-discipline pray this prayer with me so that God will help you in this area of your life:

PRAYER

Lord, your word tells me that for the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those that have been trained by it.1 I know that if I love your discipline, I love your wisdom, but if I hate your discipline, then I am unwise.2 For I know that your word is a lamp and your teaching a light to me, and the reproof of your discipline is my way to life.3 For I have the desire to do what is right but not the ability to carry it out.4 Please strengthen me, oh God. For I know you did not give me the spirit of fear but of a sound mind and self-discipline.5 Thank you for your grace and mercy. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Scripture References:

  1. Hebrews 12:11
  2. Proverbs 12:1
  3. Proverbs 6:23
  4. Romans 7:14-20
  5. 2 Timothy 1:7

Life Giver Killer

As I sit by your bedside, I just can’t believe my eyes.

please, don’t die.

You’re beginning to flatline, your heartbeat is growing weak.

Sweet, gentle, and kind. You’re innocence as strong as your spirit is meek.

As you lay there with your arms stretched out, your legs crossed, I can’t help but feel a sense of loss.

my soul is lost…

Who did this to you? What kind of evil is this?

Who would betray you with a smile and murder you with a kiss?

Tears fill my eyes, I cannot comprehend this injustice.

I WANT JUSTICE!

Anger overtakes me, I demand to know the culprit as I sit in this pit of despair.

This cannot be real, it just isn’t fair.

I grab your hand, I can hear a faint whisper as you try to speak. So, I lean in closer because your body is way too weak.

I know you’re fading fast so I ask you one last time in desperation,

Please! Just tell me, I need an explanation.

Who did this?

I will find them and make them pay for what they have done.

They have taken you from the world, they have killed the sun.

There will be no more radiant beauty, no more warmth from your glow.

No more perfect light,

Only the deepest depths of darkness once you go.

I need to know, tell me.

Who wears blood-stained hands like a badge of dishonor, Father, please just tell me!

Almost on cue, you looked into my eyes. Your gaze pierced my soul as if I already knew…

“Oh sweet daughter”, you said as the life left your body. “The person who killed me…”

“was you.”


ABOUT THIS POEM

I wrote this poem coming out of a difficult time in my life. I realized that I had disobeyed Jesus with some decisions that I had made and in essence crucified Him (the life giver) over again with my actions. At the time I didn’t realize the depth of my deception and sin, and the realization of everything I had done, broke me. This poem speaks to that journey, the journey and heartbreak of coming face to face with yourself and your sin.

I Got Up, And I Lived

CHAPTER 1: Lost And Spiritually Broken

“I want to die.”

That’s what I thought as I held the knife up to my wrist. Shaking profusely, in emotional agony, I begged God to let me take my own life.

That’s right, I wanted to die.

I was emotionally drained, spiritually broken, and completely lost in my life. I was at a place where no one or anything could help me but Jesus Christ himself.

I’d be lying to you if I told you this was the first time I contemplated taking my own life. I previously daydreamed about the ways I could do it.

Walk into traffic?

No, because that could traumatize and ruin someone else’s life and I didn’t want to be the cause of another person’s pain.

Take a bottle of pills I had in my medicine cabinet?

No, because I Googled the ingredients and realized it wouldn’t even kill me. At best, I would’ve just died a slow painful death by poisoning myself. Not quite what I was going for…

CHAPTER 2: My Grace Is Sufficient For You

So there I stood, in my kitchen with a butcher knife up to my wrist. I decided I could no longer cope with my life. I was tired of feeling such overwhelming pain. It had become too much for me to bear.

Crying uncontrollably I yelled out to God,

” PLEASE let me do this, PLEASE Lord!”

I fell to my knees, I begged and pleaded with God…on the kitchen floor sobbing, sweating, broken, and no longer able to recognize the person I had become.

As I lie on the floor in the fetal position, hugging my fragile body, crying my heart out to Jesus, the Lord was near to me in my time of distress. He whispered 2 Corinthians 12:9 to my heart, “My grace is sufficient for you.”

CHAPTER 3: Surrender

You see, what I hadn’t realized is that the Lord was right there with me through my pain. He preserved my mind, never allowing me to stray too far from him. In my moment of affliction, I still had the mind to think through the consequences of my actions if I were to take my own life.

What I wanted wasn’t actually to die, what I wanted was peace and what I needed was Jesus.

He had to become my all and all, my everything.

I would never truly find joy until I came to the end of myself; until I gave up every piece of me to the one who had created me. 

I had to surrender.

CHAPTER 4: I Lived

The Lord has shown me immeasurable amounts of grace and mercy in my life and in my darkest moment, he reassured me that his grace was sufficient to carry me through my trials.

Through God’s power, I got up.

I got up off that floor. I put the knife back in its proper place. I dusted myself off, wiped my tears away then made a decision to trust God.

Things didn’t get better instantly, but they did get better over time.

Moment by moment, then minute by minute, then hour by hour, then day by day…I got up…

– and I lived.


If you or someone you know is in crisis, call 988 to reach the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. You can also call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255, text HOME to 741741, or visit SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources for additional resources.