All posts tagged: Short Stories

I Got Up, And I Lived

CHAPTER 1: Lost And Spiritually Broken CHAPTER 2: My Grace Is Sufficient For You CHAPTER 3: Surrender CHAPTER 4: I Lived CHAPTER 1: Lost And Spiritually Broken “I want to die.” That’s what I thought as I held the knife up to my wrist. Shaking profusely, in emotional agony, I begged God to let me take my own life. That’s right, I wanted to die. I was emotionally drained, spiritually broken, and completely lost in my life. I was at a place where no one or anything could help me but Jesus Christ himself. I’d be lying to you if I told you this was the first time I contemplated taking my own life. I previously daydreamed about the ways I could do it. Walk into traffic? No, because that could traumatize and ruin someone else’s life and I didn’t want to be the cause of another person’s pain. Take a bottle of pills I had in my medicine cabinet? No, because I Googled the ingredients and realized it wouldn’t even kill me. At best, …

How To Trust God Even When He Breaks Your Heart

CHAPTER 1: Just One Stipulation CHAPTER 2: From Joy To Fear CHAPTER 3: Holding On To Hope CHAPTER 4: Receiving Bad News CHAPTER 5: 3 Things God Taught Me During My Time Of Grief CHAPTER 6: Jesus Is Our Example CHAPTER 7: God Can Be Trusted Because He Always Honors His Word CHAPTER 1: Just One Stipulation God betrayed me.  That’s how I felt when I had my first miscarriage last year. It was the most painful experience that I’ve ever had and I knew that it would happen. See, sometimes I have this ability, a sort of “foreknowing” that things will happen before they happen. After the birth of my son in 2019, I knew in my heart that I would never meet my second child, and it created a lot of anxiety about having more children. The mere thought of miscarriage would cause me to break down so I decided that I never wanted to experience pregnancy ever again. But there was something in me that knew my mothering journey was not yet …